Charlken's moody BLog

2010 2nd blog

2010-05-20T05:54:00.002-09:30

Again, such a long long time never updated my blog. I'm drinking wine alone right now.

This would be last semester of my university life, I have been doing quite a lot of things since last my last blog that I updated here. After I finish the previous semester in 2009, I have been to ShangHai to visit my cousin for one month. During this month, I have been to other places of China also which was Hong Kong, Shi Yan(Hu Bei), Hang Zhou, and Macao.

I went to ShangHai in 2004 to 2005 before, for two months. The reasons that I went there for two months in 6 years ago are because I couldn't decide what is my future plan after I graduate from Chung Hua High School (Seremban) and my parents didn't really allow me to study in Kuala Lumpuh. At that time, I was really lost, because I'm not sure that what should i do the next. It was difficult for me to continue my study life because I failed all english subject since Kindergarden school. I was just good in those subject that involved with number, such as Mathematics, Accounting, Advance business calculation, etc. Secondly, I could not give my parents some confidence or hope about how am I going to continue my study life.

My uncle is holding a interior design company in ShangHai. When the time I was taking my LCCI exam in the end of 2004, my mum asked me whether want to go ShangHai for working and give me some times to think about what would be my future. I decided to go immediately and I decided to depart the next day right after my last paper of LCCI exam ( due to some special issues ). I went ShangHai with my lovely cousin who is younger than two years. I was quite happy during the 1st month because I could forget everything in Malaysia, what I have to do was just wake up early and go to work and knew some friends there. I also went to two trips in China which was HangZhou and HuangShan. I never ask for more, life was easy. However, after one month, I had to start thinking about what should I do the next in between staying back in ShangHai or go back Malaysia to continue studying. At the end, I have decided to go back Malaysia and my cousin staying back at there. There are few reasons, 1st, the fact is my uncle care about my cousin and before my grandmother left us, she did ask my uncle to take care of him. 2nd, me and my cousins' background is a bit different. That's what you uncle told me " you parents can afford you to study and you still have chances to make your own decisions ". 3rd, if I stayed back in ShangHai, I would just only one language in the rest of my life which is chinese and i can only fight with my life in China ( about this point, i'm not sure that whether i'm wrong not not, because what my cousin doing now is traveling around the world to confer with other organization, but the fact is my cousin english always better than me and he improved so much as well).

After I came back to Malaysia, I studied IELTS in British Council ( which is recommended by one of my best brother, Victor) for two months after I was studying by myself in its library because the tuition fees was quite expensive for me at that time. I had been approved to study in Sunway College with the course of Monash University Foundation Year (MUFY) with the certificate from British Council that I had been studying there for two months in 15th of August 2005. However, I failed my english subject again after one year of the MUFY course. I was freaking depressed and disappointed. So that I work for MYC for few months which is an event company. I can improve a little bit my english because I have used English to explain about what we were promoting to student in colleges or university in Malaysia. Few months later, I decided to take the IELTs and i passed it luckily.

In 2007, I was studying in Victoria University (Sunway campus). In 2008, I transferred to MOnash University (Sunway Campus). In 2009, I transferred to Monash University in Australia ( Berwick Campus).

Who can Help me ??

2010-05-20T02:09:00.003-09:30

I am seriously stuck . I need someone to talk to me . I need someone that I will listen to.

Aussie Life 2009 Sem 2

2009-09-08T20:21:00.010-09:30

Snowing in Berwick
Tim's Birthday

Esther's Birthday
Gals just come from Malaysia, had a dinner to welcome them

Kenneth Chen Birthday
1st clubbing in 2nd Semester.

Singk with Casper they all during the Sem break

:-) How long that I didn't update my blog again ?? Around two months I think. Too lazy to write anythings here so that I just upload some pics in stead of write something.

Great news

2009-07-27T18:57:00.002-09:30

I got a really good news last Thursday night! I got an email from Monash, It said that student can defer the subject of AFW 2020 Cost info the reason is because It had a disruption during the exam time. What happened on that day was a white guy arguing with an examiner due to his calculator did not have the sticker of Monash approved that's why examiner did not allow the white guy to use the calculator. The white guy was screaming and shouting in the exam hall even they went outside the door we can listen also. Because of the issue, I can defer my Cost Info that the paper I failed in my Uni life. On the other side means that I can retake the exam in week 5 and I can still keep my record that I never failed any subject in my Uni life. I'm really damn happy. I will work hard on this semester and next semester. Actually I have started to study and follow up my units since the 1st week of semester start. I will keep in on till the exam finish. I feel that I really got too much luckiness from the god in this two years. I really don't hope that I still rely on this luckiness anymore. The feel is like if I use this kind of luckiness too much, my life will be reduced by the god or I will be facing any disaster soon.

新学期

2009-07-18T23:54:00.005-09:30

最近天气怎的遭透了。气温逐渐下降，狂风吹个不停，很多人都生病了。我之前也病了好几天，有一两天连床也下不了，可能是我刚从Sydney回来，没休息够就忙着接应刚从马来西亚来澳洲的好朋友，加上没睡够和那讨人厌的天气，我刚Sydney回来Melbourne机场的时候就只有三度。不过，我非常感谢Hann这好兄弟在我病卧在床的时候好好的照顾我，对我无微不至，还煮粥给我吃，虽然那粥不像粥，不过有心就好，这恩我必会回报

最近心情也不好，考试成绩揭晓了，有科不合格，虽然这是预料中的事，但始终觉得对不起自己，对不起父母，真的很自责。现在事情还没解决，说怎样都没心情，没心情玩，没心情和新来的朋友们混在一起，而且好朋友Casper也回马来西亚了，毕业了。我觉得我的自闭症即将发作了。

其实，心里除了每天出现"Cost Info"这个字（是我不及格的那科，还出现很多的问号。何谓人生？何谓朋友？永远都没有个肯定的答案。脑中有很多的大道理，就是不知要怎么写成文章。矛盾啊！

明天就开学了，什么都不想去做，就只想把学期的成绩搞好，不想再犯同样的错误了，我现在的责任就是读好书。

我想明天，我在这所有的朋友都会从家乡回来了，蛮开心的。在这能够相处的友情就只剩下一年罢了，我会好好珍惜的。妈妈说的没错，我真的很注重友情。我喜欢和好朋友们混在一起，我会怕寂寞。至于爱情我都没那么渴望。说真的我真的我想我已经不知什么是爱情了。暂时是这样，我对爱情太挑剔，对食物也一样。我真的不能忍受情侣之间的吵吵闹闹，所以我也很不喜欢看到身边的情侣朋友们吵吵闹闹。

我希望我能够在下次写博客的时候把心中的的大道理写出来。

Casper Graduation

2009-06-18T04:49:00.006-09:30

This is the 1st time edited picture, if it's not nice please forgive me ~~ I try to my edit skill. This is the pre-celebration for students who graduating in this semester. Casper and Kinch are graduating after this semester. I was the photographer for him. Rhine and Nat also came Monash Berwick campus for blessing and took pictures together.We spent like the 3 hours to take those pictures from head of the campus to the end.
Kinch
Apartment A121 housemates, Casper and me.
Hann~~
Mufyians
Our professional photographer

June's birthday

2009-06-18T04:09:00.003-09:30

This is the picture that i took in Casper room. And the coat is new ~~ I bought it here during the sales and it cost AUS$200. Is it nice?
This was the party one week before my exam started, this was special for June's birthday. She had her birthday celebration in a high level pub. It is beautiful and nice. This is the picture that I took in front of the door. Silk Road, this club is not normally for asian, most of them are AHMO. Asian/Chinese normally go to the Eve, Seven, Platform1.
Casper, June and me~~ June is the birthday girl that night.
Rhine, is she hot? We can't go clubbing without her.

Barcadi 151 , it is 75% alcohol. It can burn your stomach and throat.
We went Eve after the June's party.

Sick~~

2009-05-09T05:48:00.002-09:30

I have been studying in Australia around 80 days and this is the 1st time i get sick. i think the reason is because I didn't sleep well last few days and always stay overnight for tests. I got three tests in this two week. Actually even that i dun have i normally sleep late also. However, when the tests come, i always study in last night and i have to wake up early for the test next day. After the last test on Thursday~~ I feel a bit sick already, but i still got no enough sleep and bad been waken up by the fire alarm and i had Mcd for my dinner. Finally my sick become worse which are fewer, headache and sore throat. actually i was thinking whether i got the swine flu, because someone scared me ~~ hehe ~~ now i recover so much already ~~ just having the quite serious sore throat, can't speak loudly~~ i think will be recover soon also ~~

Long time no see

2009-04-20T06:43:00.004-09:30

wow~~~ I got such a long time didn't update my blog. I have to apologize to those people read my blog. I'm so sorry~~~ I have been staying in Australia for almost two months and I used to the environment slowly and I knew some new friends here also but most of them are asians. I do not mean they are not nice, they are nice, is just that I can't really improve my English here and I got a bit lost. I have spent so mush money in this two months and I spent some of it in acceptable spending. I let you guys guess what I spent to and It is unforgivable. The weather here is so weird because the temperature can goes up every high and It can be very cold also during the night.

Actually, today I'm so tired the reason is because I was helping few of my friends here to do the Accounting A assignment and I have my own assignments due on Wednesday and Friday. I just finished one of it which due on Wednesday.

I need to talk my relationship here also, the gal that I like is making me feel so tired recently, these is the reason that I block her msn~~ I really don't know how to chat with her nowadays, she broke up with her Bf so many times and the last time she told me that she broke with him again and I told her, you will go with him soon. Although that my heart is a bit happy to listen about, I knew that she will go with him again. Under my expected that she dates with him again few days later. I was so down.

I knew some gals' friend at here. I'm so close with them recently. I don't know whether it can make me forget about her or not. And she is coming here in the next semester. I really don't how to handle it.

Ok~~ Now I want to show some of my pictures that I took at here.

I went go Go-kart and I got 2nd o~~We were coming from the city at the morning and there is what we normally do~~
These is the second times when to the club in Melbourne
One of my in Berwick~~ He is nice and handsome
It is so Beautiful right ???

10 days trip in KL

2009-01-16T19:52:00.009-09:30

This might be the last time i go kl for visiting most of my friends, therefor I spend so long. The 1st 6 days i was sleeping in Ernest's house. here i have to appreciate him for keeping and thanks for mum as well. Actually, I realize that I got so many friends in Ernest's area(Sri Petaling), Ernest, Celina, Kevin, Saw, Nat, Hong, HuiFoong and Ariel. There are two main reasons I went for these 10 days, 1st I have to meet all of friends before i leave Malaysia 2nd to distract my attention from something, i can't really stay alone and keep quite at home because i really will think so much.
I love this kind of feel, so relaxing, swimming, listening music, read newspaper, what a wonderful and healthy leisure moment. But no one accompanies me for this kind of life or swimming when I'm in hometown. Thanks Kevin. Look at Ernest, he doesn't swim but he just accompany us to there, what a nice guy. :-)
We went a long way to KL city just for a porridge but the porridge shop did not open, hence we went to this FU JIAN MIAN, not bad also. During this 10 days I went SingK in Newway with my mufy gang, Casper, Umin and Nat. They all pro in music and i love to sing with them as well but this might be the last time i sang with them already. Sad~~ Eason Chan (Umin ) , Justin ( Casper ), AH Mei ( Nat ).Yo~~~ Everyone, do you know who is this gal?? ahaha ~` she is my pretty and love mum. Is she pretty ?? ahaha ~~ undeniable. My family all came Pyramid for shopping, I bought two T-shirts and two Jackets.
I went to Puchong Buffet+steamboat with my mufy gang. We all so terrible, i think we took more than 200 plates. We made so much noise in that restaurant and had fun that night... We played game ( 007 ,0 0 0 0 7 Piang!! AH!!!). The one who loses have to eat those food we picked. Actually we all were so full already, especially the egg that cooked by Casper, it seems like so disgusting but at last i feel it's not that disgusting and i'm the one who ate the egg, it was Xp~~hehe ~~ after the steamboat i went clubbing with my VU gang. Before that we wanna go Velvet but we got two gals under age therefor we went Quattro eventuall. I don't really like there. This might because our place is sucks and we went lated. Got a stupid Malay gal was drunk and vomitted just beside our place. And That night was quite expensive. But at least I got my friends there, as long as they enjoy then is enough for me already. She is my JiMui, dun miss understood o~~` hehe ~~
Where is Ernest??

New Year New BLog~~~

2009-01-05T02:52:00.000-09:30

Finally i created a blog in 2009 for myself. It is hard for to have a blog because my english so lousy, what i typed here will make people laugh later. Anywhere, i have to wish everyone happy new year 2009 here ... Happy 2009 new year yah~~~ another 6 weeks to go in Malaysia before i go Aussie. It is really hard to describe how i feel now~~~ Of course It is hard for me to let go all my friends and family here but something make me feel like leaving soon, maybe i just want to escape something here.
My parents just bought me a Camera " Canon IXUS 870 IS" , this really can replace my sad sad heart. Not bad hor~~~ I'm waiting my new laptop to come now. hehe ~~ I really can't make myself so quiet and no activity , if i'm too free at home i will think so much and myself feel so hard, my breath can't even be smoothly~~